One may assume it must have been a long summer holiday, but that’s not the case. A few months ago I went offline to support the most important person in my life in the process of passing away.
It has undoubtedly been the most painful period in my life. I realised that whether I want it or not I have to learn how to say goodbye to this beautiful, 57-year-old lady and eventually find a way to live without my soulmate – my Mother and best friend in one person.
We had fought against secondary breast cancer for 18 years. And even though my Mum is gone I feel we won that war. It had been bloody hard at times when we felt helpless but each time we fell we eventually rose stronger. We got as close as two humans would only ever imagine. When we were not in hospital we lived our life to the fullest. We spoke about everything so on my Mum’s final day the only thing we said to each other was ‘I love you’ and then we smiled cherishing all the memories we made. A moment later I cried in my Godmother’s arms.
I have grieved for my Mum and now I’m coming back to you. I feel stronger and I feel free. Free of cancer, free of fears. Full of love and self-awareness though. As always I will share my experience with you and I’m sure it will steer our projects into a right direction.
Thank you so much for waiting for my return.